Tuesday, May 31, 2011




So I woke up a bit late today.. and it was really hot/humid out. TT_TT

I had a mission today!

  • pick up my custom-framed painting from my Great grandfather - ✓
  • Purchace an angeld brush for conturing cheeks - ✓
  • Purchace a colour to contoru my cheeks -
  • Purchace more lashes - ✓
  • Purchace an eyelash curler - ✓
  • Purchace any other helpful tools - ✓
So as you can see I could not find a colour to contour my cheeks thats I was happy with... and I don't want to continue using my revlon eyeshadow pallet that I use for my nose.

So yeah, I need to find a medium of the two shades. It's revlon colorstay eyeshadow in coffee bean. The top one I use as a highlight over any cream highlgither on my nose and the bottom one just sits there looking pretty. :P

While I was at SEPHORA I did swatch a few face powders but nothing seemed right and I didn't feel like asking at the time considering I had a limited amount of money at the time.


Boo~Bear (Jason) gave me $100.00 so this friday after I cash my check I'm trucking back up to Sephora to get that shade!!


Also considering in investing in a dome shaped brush to contour my nose. The one I'm using now isin't meant for it. I'm sure once I get the right brush it'll look 100% better! Your ideas on the right brush?


I've lost about 5lbs; no exercise, no nothing. Just pure sweat. LOL I WENT DOWN A PANT SIZE!! Isin't that CRAZY? So I'm a bit hesitant in investing in any type of clothing. Maybe I should make it a little tighter than I normally do? But what if I don't lose anymore? Ugh! I don't know D:



Ity appears as though the right (Left in pic) last is a bit..lower than the other?? D: Oh well.. These are the $1.59 lashes from the discount store. They were a BITCH to get off the case. Maybe that's the reason the other is fucked? Ho hum~

Not too bad closed. You can see the contour of my nose.. hardly my cheek. I was afriad to use my blush brush on the eyeshadow pallett and ruin it..


BOOM! Hey. I think I'm hot and so does my Boo~Bear. That's all that matters. Actually, his opinon doesn't matter either. LOL

To Sephora~


And my purchaces! Lashes~ can't wait to try. The black thing above is an eyelash aplicator? Seem's nifty. We'll see how that goes over. And I bedazzle the shit out of my nails often!

Aside from the lash curelr (I couldn't find an electric one..) and brush I think this is decent..


Well, cold shower and bed! Tootles!



Sunday, May 29, 2011

Questions question questions!

Hihi! Nothing too exciting~



So as a gyaru-in-training, sure, I have a lot of knowlage but I lack the skill to put that knowlage to use! I have the tools, I have the drive--there are just some things that are not working out for me..

I have some specific questions! Some things I have experienced with gyaru-make style and other style questions.

cover up, foundation, powder, contour, blush. Usually do contour after eyes, before blush.

Contour question(s):
--I need to wear glasses to work. The contour on my nose builds up and leaves dark spots where my glasses rest. Any way to prevent that?

Blush Questions:
I apply powder to most of my cheek, a brighter pink to the apples. Is this correct?

Primer, shadow(s), liner, powder over liner, mascara, lashes, eyebrows

Liner Question(s):
--After I apply the liner I press a light amount of black eyeshadow over the liner, top and bottom, to seal it in. 6 hours or so after wear it tends to appear faded/smuged/faded/etc. How do I prevent this?

--My eyes droop down at the ends naturally. Ehh.. very long eyelashes. Connecting the top and lower liner to the < look's funny. Am I crazy? Is there a special liner style that will compliment my eyes?

--When I try to acomplish the liner wing at the end of the upper eye it gets all bent and wriggly. I've watched many videos and tried many times but I still get messed up. Is it because of the shape of my eye? Loose skin? Are there tips to doing this besideds pulling the skin to smoothe it out?

False Eyelash Question(s):
--When I see pics of women wearing false lashes you can barley tell that they arn't real. In my pics in the previous post they curv a lot higher then my natural lash. Should I invest in a lash curler? Should I be shaping my false lashes down a bit? And if so how? What lashes will best compliment my eyes or is it all fair game?

Circle Lense Question(s):
--As I stated previously I attempted to put in a lense about 3 years ago. I did get it in but my eye was beet red and immedatly irritated. I have to force my eye open just to see what it looked like. My eye would not stop tearing. Is this normal? Are all lenses like this? Is there a reason this happend? Should I NOT wear lenses?

--If I'm just crazy where is the best place to buy lenses? what colour should I invest in? what style?

Eyebrow Question(s):
--I have over-plucked my eyebrows on the ends and they refuses to grow back! I do trim my eyebrows so they are kept. Is it necessary to shave them down as it appears on most gyaru?

Wash, air dry, some product depending on what I feel like doing.

Hair Question(s):
--I get my hair cut about 2x a year. October 2009 my hair was to my mid back. I chopped it all off to a short pixi due to severe damage from hair dye. I'm very iffy about dying my hair. I need to get it cut again. I'm against getting it styled due to when I wake up the next morning there will no longer be a style. What gyaru hair cut will work best with my face shape?

--I am interested in getting a light dye job. Professional to reduce damage. Is my current hair colour sutiable for gyaru? What colour is?

--What is the best way to style my hair? I havge naturally wavy hair, some parts are extra-curly. the back always falls flat. VERY VOLUMPTIOUS.


These are all the questions I have at the moment. Please leave input!



Friday, May 27, 2011

I musta' sweated off 20 lbs today!



As you can tell, It's really hot/humid. Plus I was doing laundry... I was so sweaty. Good thing I went out with no make.

Aside from setting make with powder what are other ways to prevent make from running off/getting sticky when humid/hot/sweaty?

I also did some shopping. This discount place near me sells some decent lashes for $1.50-$3.00. Some cust clips/nail things. Not alot of makeup.. Got a new mascara and some lash glue. Not DUO but Reva\lon precision. I must say the glue helped 100%!


I did purchade some shade(s) for conturing. My boyfriend didnt notice the differnce but I took before and after photos and it's pretty obvious.. huhu.


I actually have a couple before and after photos to share. As well as the makeup I use mainly for acquireng the gyaru-look / every day use. I'll make a chart with details of what I use them for..



I posted in the KOGAL-PANEL on Livejournal and I recieved good feedback on the lash situation. As far as the clothing suggestions--I REALLY liked the input. I'm more considerate of spending some money on a nice pair of boots.. But the other clothing? I don't HAVE to buy it from Torrid. I like to shop around for the best deal. But if it comes down to it it's something I'm prepared to do.


On a side note.. FINANCALLY I'm buckling down. I spend about $20.00-$40.00 every time I do laundry (Friday/sat) to get anything I need/want. I also smoke (Huhu..USA gold LIGHT 100's.)  so I just buy what I need for the week. I leave an emergency $20.00 for myself. No more cabs! No more ordering out! No more ATM! I'll be able to deposite about $240.00/wk into my account. Sadly, today I'm spending $130.00 on my sisters buirthday present. Obvisouly, we have different taste. :9 But from here on out I'm only worried about 4 things!

-Cellphone bill
-College loan
-Shopping (foot, needs)
-CATS (I wub my cats.. :3)

Everything else can be put on hold untill.. something. I have nothing to save for. HAHA.



If you nhave any questions let me know!



As it says, first attempt. I like that around the middle of my nose where it attatches to my face..it doesnt look as 'swollen'(?).

GIANT LIGHTER! I'm gemming the crap out of it since i'll have it for a while. Huhu~



Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Pic spam!



Took a few moew pics the past few days, nothing too spectacular. :V

Showing off the progress of bejewling my phone.. used Puricute on it.. I love sparklies :D

 Mainly to proove the side of my bewbs. Very hard to get anything not loose or large..

 Sunday! Dress down! I love Plaid! I think I look better in jeanse.. :/

Work~ Me and my SANRIO purse.. Need to invest in a new one. Olive skinney khakis or something..


So.. nothing really besideds a pic spam. I'll come up with something :x

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Photoshop? + What I CAN and CANT wear, GIVEWAYS?

Hihi again!


Growing up and viewing blogs and such, I've come to understand PHOTOSHOP is looked down upon in general. But I've noticed in the Gyaru community it's done commonly and those who do it arn't afraid to admit it.

So Is photoshop OK? Could I photoshop myself slimmer and such?

I don't think I would; It doesn't seem right to me. The farthest I would go is maybe lighten it to make the colours brighter; maybe pink on the cheeks. But much more then that seems like a LIE to me. When you take a picture of yourself it is of YOU and nothing else; AS IS.

I don't know, I don't see anything wrong with it for anyone else, but not for me. And I fear no matter how good I may possibly get.. I will never appear as good as I possibly can because I stear away from PHOTOSHOP.

Just my opinion on PHOTOSHOP.


Counted 47 strawberrie flowers in the garden so far!! Need to get some moth balls; last yeart the bugs got em' all :< I expect a bit more then 100 at the end of it all.. nomnomnom! Very excited.

My neighbor lets her dog use the backyard as a toilet so there's dog shit everywhere and now that all the weeds are tell theres going to be no way for them to clean the back yard--Just going to have to mow over it. EW. It's not fair. :(


I've tried keeping a food diary but I don't always carry it -everywhere- with me so I tend to forget.. What other methods are there to remembering? Write it down? Text it to yourself? Keep the reciept? IDK D:

When I was keeping one I managed to keep it for up to a week.. and I didn't eat as much as I normally do because I saw how much I already had. So when I felt hungry I thoght NO WAY! Look how much you ate already!.. that always helped.


Oh! And another present!

A KUROMI necklace! I LOVE KUROMI!!! :D


And some pics of my make for the day... e3e

w/o flash-I think it's better today. I did some shadow on the lower lash and went pink/nude with the shadow.. I don't like dark as much. Too dramatic!

w/o flash but in the light. (100 watt reveal!)

w/o flahsh.. maybe you can't see the shadow as much. It's a sheer shimmer I guess. soft pink in corner, pink on lis and over lid, dark pink on outer corners/lid. Blech..

w/flash.. just a side profile... No bumps on my nose! :D

w/flash. Very..SHINEY. Not so much with the flash. I have matte powder on so I don't know why it's shiney.. D:


So, I don't have a full-size mirror. My webcam is the first photo isin't the best quality. :/ I also don't have a stand for my camera. And my room is kinda' stuffed considering I'm pretty much living in 1 room so.. Hohoho! NO ROOM.


I'll get aorund to posting some outfits; with or without me in them. My nailpolish as well as my makeup.

I really would like some input. On my makeup, that is.

I KNOW what I need to do for clothing I just don't really have the resources at the moment. Plus clothing doesn't take skill, makeup does. So I'd like to work on something I have to do myself, not that I can just go buy.


I only purchace clothing I can wear TO work as well! BUDGET!!

Speaking of clothing... What DOES look good on bigger girls, gyaru-style?

And since I won't wear what I'm not comfertable in.. let me provide a list of what I AM comfertable in..

  • jeans-any wash, generaly flare/boot cut/skinney. Nothing redicilous.
  • capris-covering a bit of the knee. no shorter.
  • tank tops-any style, any kind. I like to layer.
  • Over shirts-like carnigans, only without buttons? Thin and flowly, right? I generally wear them with tank tops. MY BOOBS ARE E+. I CAN NEVER NOT WEAR A BRA. I have a white clear-strap bra. That is all.
  • Skirts-FLOWLY. Nothing shorter then my knee. Nothing fitted.
  • Sandles, Flats, Skater-Snekers, flat boots (Roxy, Rocket Dogg)-I have HUGH calves. I can't wear anything much higher then 2" above my knee. There are stores that make boots that I can wear but they're $50.00+ and because I'm not really ready to jump into the gyaru style as well as have anywhere to wear them... no point in buying them.

Any and all shirts I wear are long shirts to help with my tummy. I also ALWAYS wear camis.

So.. Yeah.. I guess I should provide a list of things I WONT wear.

So why won't you wear these items? There are mutiple reasons so I will explain them now. The clothing items listed will fall under one of these reasons.

  1. I don't feel comfertable in it. I will look insecure and I will constantly be figiting. It will be obvious I am not confident in what I am wearing and that will be less attractive. Confidence is a BIG part of attractivness.
  2. It just doesnt look good on me. I have upper-arm fat (DUH) and BIG thighs. MY ASS IS HUGHE. But not sagge :)
  3. I can't find it. I live in Schenectady. Only stores close to me are in malls. Rotterdam Square Mall, Colonie Center, Crossgates Mall. You can look those up to see the stores inside, visit the stores websites, see if they are gyaru-acceptable.
  4. I can't afford it.  I make $1200.00 a month, well $1000.00 a month because we're not geting OT. I have a college loan to pay off, a cellphone bill, 2 cats to take care of, transport to and form work when I can't ride my bike, food shopping, general shopping. I still need a CAR and I want to pay off my DEBT (Only about... $3000.00 worth. Not bad for someone my age) before I start investing a lot of money into my style.

  • Shorts My thighs, DUH
  • Short Skirts My thighs, DUH
Thats really it. Nothing above the knee. And I SOMETIMES allow my arms to be exposed. They're just really big. I would love to post a full-body pic of my front and side so you all can see my body and go from there not nude, lol! in like, shorts and a tank. w/e..


So, that's it for now. I have to dig up strawberry plants for future in-laws!



EDIT::How I feel about participating in GIVEAWAYS...

I don't think it's right for me to participate.

Why? Because, althought I've seen many giveaways over the years I've never announced myself or kep record of my life. No one knows who I am. No one knows I exist. But i've been watching all of your posts since 2007. I've seen you all grow up and evolve. And I've been sitting here, unknown. So for me to suddnly POP UP and participate in giveaways when there are so many of you out there whe wern't scared to be gyaru/gal/whatever you refer to yourself as.. it's not fair.

I really want to though but I don't want to win and have people come after me because I'm just now being proactive about this. So.. IDK. :/ Im sure some of the items would really help me in my evolution.



Friday, May 20, 2011

So.. food shopping! ECT...

Hihi! Cat's walking all over me T^T;


So that DOWNTOWN TUMBLR! page.. still have not exercised but I did use the shopping list... Although a lot of what it was aksing me for I honestly don't eat..


So FOOD wise this is what I purchased..

Sour cream and onion pringles - snack
Rasberry Figs - snack
Garlic Powder - Is it true seasonings have 0 calories?
Fruit cocltail in natural pear juice - snack/desserte
Roast Beef Ramen - lunch at work. It's cheap! 2/$1.00!!
Taco Cheese - I make AWESOME beef patties! aside from the frying in oil..and excessive amount of grease and oil they're not that bad, really! :P
Small seedless watermellon - snack/desserte
Carrots - snack
Oranges - snack
Apples - snack
Onions- I LOVE onions..!
Hamburger - for beef patties/hamburgers. I should have gotten turkey but oh well :x
Hot Dogs - the general kinds; I've been craving PORK AND BEANS recently... D:
Country-style pork ribs - dinner or lunch.. BBQ em' or bake em'
Whole wheat english muffins - use instead of bread and buns!
2% Milk - Anything else makes me wanna' barf. Whole is too thick and skim.. well...let's not go there.
Greek Yogurt - Breakfast/snack
Low fat ranch dressing - for the carrots, DUH!
Water - 48x bottles! I love water!
Pork and Beans - for the hot dogs! :D
Adobe, Sazon - seasonsings for general cooking / beef patties
Ice Cream - $1.00 each! Mini cups of one serving ice creams!
Frozen Dinners - Smart Start and some othe kind-mainly diet-related dinners. For work.


So yeah, I strayed from the shopping list because, idealistcly, I work 4 days a week, 12 hours a day. I go food shopping once every 45-60 days. I don't really have the time to prepare a healthy meal for work. And financally.. Work refuses OT now so I'm making $200.00 less a month. It costs $$$$$ to eat healthy, be healthy. I'm doing me best with what I have. There's always room for inprovment!


I did purchace some persoanl things and some nom-noms for Bandit and Whiskers.. They'll nhave to wait for that! And I forgot pineapple juice!!! UGH!



Thursday, May 19, 2011

Again? But is hasn't been at least a month! :O

Hihi! Back again..


Fiddled with some makeup. All off the top of my head. The eyeshadow is based off of one of my favorites from an EGG magazine back in.. 2009? Mmhm.. And did my hair with a straightner. Not very coorapative D:


So..yeah... currently using one of the Sallly H. HD nail polishes.. silver glitter tips.
HAIIIRRR~~! It's actually quite.. dirty... so it fell flat on top after a while. :c

And now onto some more random photos...

Allie <3 got me this shirt for Christmas

I <3 My Bicycle! I really do!


And onto my birthday presents!

As you've already seen my HK mousepad, compact mirror and mouse.. My GLOWING HK.. A KUROMI hand bag and an authentic KUROMI fan! OMG <3

Apparently there is two more birthday presents out there for me.. Just gotta' take the time to meet up with my loved ones..

Jason. Aside from my bra strap not a bad photo.. :9

Now time to be illegal! <3

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Shouldn't be up!

2Am; wake up at 6:30AM for a 12 hour shift! I'M SO SMART!


Actually Posting because I've been quite busy tidying up and listening to music and watching OLD movies.. Checked my e-mail and realized I had e-mailed myself some pics from the past few weeks.. Figure I'd show ya'll a few more things including a few birthday presents I recieved <3


First off; a few looks at me. 90% of pics you'll see of me are before/at work. When not at work I take pleasure in laying around in pajamas and doing nothing. :C
At work, normal attire. Told ya' I'm a big girl! <3 5'3 'thunder thighs' LOL!

Nothing special... :9

Real glasses.. straightend my hair. :9 I don't do it often. Too much work!

Natural hair, playing with lip colours.

A cup my mum thought suited me... MMHM

My stuffed sanrio collection as of now with 2 rogues.. can you spot them? :B

Shoulda' rotated..Bandit on my boyfriend Jason. YES! The INFAMOUS BANDIT!

My BIRTHDAY CAKE my AWESOME Sisiter Esha got me!! <3 Hello Kitty GLOWS.. doesn't take a good pic like that though..

A compact mirror my bitchin' sister Jess got me! I added the stones on her bow myself.. and as you can see I'm at work.. and my zebra/star phone case.....I hate animal print, honestly.

Jason and I have been together for 3.5 years as you know and this is the first time he's put any thought into what to get me! The mouse flashes and has a floaty hello kitty in it! I use it ALL the time..DUH!


So, I did get that pedicure I wanted. I didn't get my nails done.. they're weak. Not doing a horrid job on growing them.


Still not working out.. UGHH I'm such a procrastonater (sp?)


So as it stands, 2:10AM~ SWEET DREAMS! I'm feeling more motivated!!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

It's That Time Of Month Again!

Ah! Warm weather! What does that mean? I can start riding my bike again!!

I went out last week and took the first step to a healtier more socialy accepted-looking me. How? Bought some kicks for exercising as well as an outfit. There's a 24/7 gym near my work which I intend on going to after work, 4 days a week, 2 hours a day. One of those days I intend on spending 3-4 hours at said gym.

Tanning included!

I also came across a sweet blog that goes above and beyond (in my opinion) for starter-motivation/workouts for who else but starters! (VERY HELPFUL!!)


Also included are lvl 1, 2, 3, grocery shopping lists, workout plans, check lists, recipes, etc etc...

It reminds me of what you would find in magazines, 1 page work-out plans for a specific part of your body.. but this seems to work with your whole body in mind and you can do it without going to the gym!


As a concequence of winter weight I've shyed away from photos.

-My hair has gotten longer, still no dye.
-Working on getting nails healtier, stronger, longer.


New store, new plus size clothing! It's geared towards juniors and although I shall be 25 (May 13th!!!! FRIDAYYY!!!) I love the selection! Just recently bout a gray and white striped tank with a giant gemmed bow on top and 2" of flowerly lace on the bottom; flowly! Super cute, IMO. Also a nautical-themed over shirt.

Trying NOT to buy more clothing untill I get some of this weight gone-basically till my pants are falling off of me! I'm focusing on sweats and pajamas, When not working out I'll be sweating my ass off (I do it every summer,, huhhu...)!


Love life? EHH... 3 years, 5 months with my 'southern' boy. He's in his own world but loves and accepts me after he pokes fun. We've been serisouly discussing investing in a car and moving in together. I intend to be married by 27, children no later then 30....

Odd, it's only 5 years away. TT_TT!!


So is 25 too old to stive for the gal look? To a lot of you I'm sure it is. To me? Whatever makes me happy and as long as I dont look a fool! I still get mistaken for under 21... SWEET.


Till next time!!!!